Forget hope..I’m over it!

I swear everyday there is somebody new announcing a pregnancy or new born baby and I just get so jealous. It’s definitely not on purpose because I’m happy for any woman/family that was successfully able to conceive and carry their baby to full term but it’s just like dang why not me? Is it never going to happen? It’s easy to say “just wait/be patient”, “it will happen one day” “just pray”. I do all of that but what if even after the praying and the waiting it never happens? What is my answer then? It hurts even more when people get pregnant and don’t even want their baby or Especially when they are on their 2nd & 3rd + baby and still weren’t even trying. It’s just a frustrating process, especially when you’ve been trying for years and still nothing but disappointing results and it starts to become a depressing obsession. Sometimes i just feel like saying fuck it, it’s never going to happen just just accept it but if I really do accept it then I feel like I failed as a woman and I know that’s not the case cause I’m a woman regardless but it’s just how I feel.....sigh I just needed to vent. Don’t want to seem selfish, just frustrated..