..hey

This will be a long post about me. Bear with me.

I grew up with my two brothers and I mostly had male friends growing up at school. I was basically boyish and acted mostly like a guy because I was mostly treated like one at home - my mom didn't really give me any special attention like any other moms would give to their daughters because she had to work, she was a single parent. I basically also grew up thinking men are my brothers/friends. Just that. Never thought I'd ever have any special relationships with them. So I never had a thing with a guy til I reached 18 (right now).

I really like him and he does too. But I just don't like how girly I am when it comes to him because I like him. I hate to be that kind of a girl. Sometimes I get home thinking: WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT NOISE YOU JUST MADE? So yeah, I feel like I'm slowly losing that "self" of mine years ago. I was really cool back then and now I feel so girly and that...

Comments?