Body count

People say not to be ashamed of how many ppl you’ve slept with but in all honesty, I am. Not because of “society” , but because of who I am as a person & my morals & values. I used to pride myself on only sleeping with men that I was dating bc of my sense of self worth & not wanting any & everybody getting to see my goodies. I remember how gross I felt after my first one night stand. I didn’t even like the guy, I was just horny and wanted sex. I allowed a man I really didn’t even like , inside of me, allowed him to touch & kiss on me like he was my man. At first I tried to write it off as a “guys do it so why can’t I” type of thing. But it’s deeper than that , I disregarded my morals over a temporary feeling & to prove a stupid point that didn’t even need to be proved . Yeah, sexual freedom/liberation is dope for some ppl,but to the young girls, like me , who look at sex on a deeper level, just bc this new movement of fuck whoever whenever is a thing , doesn’t mean you have to be apart of it. Don’t feel bad if you haven’t had sex yet , hell sometimes I wish I still had my virginity. Don’t feel as if , just bc sexual freedom among girls is more accepted now , you feel like you should take up any sexual advances by a cute guy/girl . If you’re a naturally modest young lady , dont change just bc you see everyone else doing it! Half of the guys I’ve slept with didn’t deserve to get a taste of my cookie & That always bothers me looking back .