Preterm Labor

I’m 29+2 and was in the hospital all weekend on a magnesium sulfate drip. I finally got to go home after being almost contraction free for a few hours and taking a 24 hour dose of procardia and magnesium oxide orally every day. I’m so tore up because I feel terrible and I just have this feeling that I’m not going to make 37 weeks. I feel like I’m gonna make it to 34 but I have a feeling baby is gonna be here early. The opening of cervix is 1 cm but it is not dilated all the way through. Maybe I’m being selfish but I hope these next few weeks go by fast so I can get to a safe place for baby to be born. I don’t want a NICU baby because I don’t want him to suffer at all, I just don’t know how to feel. I had problems with my daughter that landed me on bedrest but this is way worse than anything I ever went through with her. My fiancé is worried sick about me and keeps trying to get me to perk up because he said stressing is bad for me and our baby but I feel so down in the dumps.. guess I just need to vent a little to other mommas.