Do I have a yeast infection

So for years I’ll have different types of discharge. It’s different everyday. One day it will be white and thick, another it will be clear or milky or another will be just small chunks and no fluid 😭 I have extremely bad anxiety and too afraid ask the pharmacist or doctor and now I looked on google and it’s saying it can be life threatening if not treated. I don’t have pain or itchiness just the discharge. Please just let me know if this is Normal and please don’t try and scare me cos I most likely won’t be able to go to the doctor cos I’ll just have a panic attack 🤦‍♀️😪 oh and im on the birth control pill