I’m terrified of getting pregnant but I want to conceive

So I’ve been TTC with my boyfriend. Not for very long at all, it’s only been 6 weeks or so that we have been trying. I missed my period this month. I’m 23 DPO. I want to take a test because everyone, including myself, is tripping me out. But my boyfriend refuses to let me take one until I’m at least one more week late.

I’m absolutely terrified of getting pregnant, the last two times I was able to I miscarried. So I’m afraid to again, but i want so badly to have a baby.