struggling with porn

I'm a christian mom of 4 kiddos and Ive been married for 8 years. recently, I got taken off some anxiety medication and my sex drive has gone way, way up. I have struggled with feeling completely open and comfortable with my husband in the past in the bedroom because of infidelity years ago. We got through it with counseling and God but the consequences were still there. I just didn't feel comfortable being spontaneous or trying new things and had no confidence in the bedroom. But now that so much time has passed I'm really starting to feel comfortable and excited to do things we didn't used to do. I started looking up different things we could do in the bedroom online, but eventually found myself looking at porn. I kept trying to just look at the position guide videos but it was really arousing and I've been having such a hard time with it for about a week now. I feel awful. but i still keep looking at it and telling myself it's for my husband. I know God forgives me but for all those who pray please pray for me! I'm really trying to not look!