Don’t know what to do. Can’t do right. Please give me advice

So I have a higher sex drive than my boyfriend. So I usually let him initiate sex. Then he says he doesn’t like that I never start or initiate sex. He doesn’t like making out so I can’t kiss him to start anything. So I try to ask “I think we should have sex” or “I want you to fuck me” that kind of thing. He says That’s a turn off, that I’m being straight forward. So I try touching myself to get him into the mood (while rubbing his balls/dick), he says it’s a turn off that I touch myself. SO WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO?! I can only suck his dick or play with his balls and it’s pretty fucking embarrassing if he doesn’t get hard.

I said last night finally everything I do is a turn off for you. I know that I might not be the hottest out there but I’m pretty attractive (not trying to brag just being real. Like a lot of people hit on me yet I turn off my boyfriend????) I don’t know how to initiate and then we end up not having sex because he doesn’t either. So it’s a turn off for me to initiate but I literally can’t initiate because everything I do is a turn off. 🙄 help me.

•He has a porn addiction. I think he has watched too much porn and it has warped what he thinks sex should be. There is barely any foreplay. No kissing. No touching my body. He just gets me wet enough to stick it in and then he has sex with me until he cums. Then its over. This usually lasts about 5-10 minutes. It’s not passionate. It’s not loving. It’s not about being with the other person. It’s just fucking. That’s it.