I am absolutely petrified of getting a PAP

I am literally having any panic attack over it. It not even for another 2 weeks.

My OB is a male and the only one do ever do a Pap was my female PCP.

Idk if it’s cause I was sexually abused when I was a kid. But I can’t stop the anxiety over thinking of it. I’ll be 15 weeks and I also keep reading that people bleed after.

Idk what to do but writing this post I’m literally shaking, sweating with a knot in my stomach.

Please any advice.

Should I turn the pap down and just ask them to hold off on it?