Please help

So I’m in love with this guy (Adam) he’s so sexy n funny n Smart n he’s in love with me to he’s a little older n he’s really close with my family is like my 2th cousin I know its bad n my mother said for us not to talk I’m so depressed n mad but know one knows what I’m going through he was my first kiss n I never had a boyfriend before him I know I’m in love I think of him all the time n he said I will never be the same if I Leave him. It bricks my heart to here him say that please help me I have know friends.