DREAMS OF GOING INTO LABOR

I’m 26 weeks with my third, my first i was induced at 39 weeks then got pregnant with my second when my first was 6 months old and she came early 37 weeks, not too early but i didn’t get to the hospital till i was 9cm and dying in pain, and here my third is three years later and i’m terrified! i don’t think she will come early like my second child did i’m just scared of the pain i went through, dilated to 10cm without an epidural is PAINFUL and i never in my life wanna feel that again i really don’t see how women who have babies without an epidural do it, Go you if that’s what you choose i’ll never lol. i ended up making them give me the epidural for a c section because it hits faster “if they ever tell you it’s too late tell them to give you the c section epidural” they cannot not give it to you. but still. i’m terrified as it’s getting closer to time. 😰 am i the only one in panic mode? i’ve been told “oh you’ve done it twice before one more wont hurt or you can do this” well no duh i can’t stop the birth lol i have to have the baby, the pain though just freaks me out and i don’t wanna be in that pain again.