Sexually assault from 5 to 6

I was sexually assault at age 5 and it kept going on for about three months. First it was a boy about 11 or 12, and he was my cousin. Ever time me and my friends would play hide-and-sink, he would be like come over here under the covers this is a great hiding spot, so i did. Then he started to touching me, on my boobs and in my area. I was so scared , I didn’t tell anyone cause i thought it was my fault. He kept doing this every day for about three months. Then when I was like six me and my brother were watching a movie with this older guy who was 18, he told me to sit on his lap, so I did. He rubbed my private area whole time. I tried making excuses, so he would stop. But it didn’t work. When the movie ended I went to bed and he left. And now I’m 13, and I’m scared of men. And I scared of men when I’m in public. So that’s my story. Can any body relate