My BF likes Golden

My BF likes me to pee on him he loves everything about it I don’t mind being very sexy and doing it for him I don’t want him to return the favour but I do want to learn how to be more mean and controlling to him sexually

He often asks me to call him dirty names, spit on him & mistreat him there are other things I do to him but I am so new to all these things I managed to have him trust me enough to share and now I feel like such a priss because I’m so type A compared to this

I need help how can I learn to be more mean? What should I call him? How can I come up with stuff without his instructions? PLS HELP