i literally just texted my best friend this and then this happened. what the fuck did i do?

i just don't know if the friendship we have is healthy and i'm hurting so bad but i don't have anyone to talk to about this she's literally my best friend and my boyfriend won't understand. i love her to death but she doesn't understand that when i personally have a problem i don't like people giving advice unless i ask for it. it's that way with everyone with my mom and boyfriend and everyone. she usually is the funniest sweetest most amazing girl i know. i love her but like whenever we fight she immediately flips the script to make everything my fault and i'm like bawling right now i don't want to lose her but i'm also very stubborn and don't want to apologize when i don't see what i did wrong. also i'm sorry if i post this room.

UPDATE ON MY DAD: my dad was just rushed to the emergency room because he fell at work and was unconscious. so if you're religious please pray for him. thank you for all the advice you've given me. i've personally chosen to end my relationship with emily. there's a lot of past from our relationship not given. but my mom who knows it gave me great advice. again please pray for my father if you're religious and thanks again to everyone who gave me advice ❤️