im a horrible mother/person

im a FTM. my baby is 3 weeks old. last week my mom was here helping me so i felt way better. now she is gone, my husband is at work and im all alone all day. and i just keep getting frustrated with her. i know she is helpless and i hsve to provide for her. but i feed her and she just screams and screams after and wont sleep. i cant help her in anyway. ive been pumping and giving formula-neither is better. my husband doesnt help with night feedings and is tired when he comes home so he doesnt help then. i barely get a chance to pump during the day. i havent drank water all week. i havent really slept all week. i love her of course. but sometimes i just want to scream, cry and just go away. i feel she would be better without me. im a monster for being so upset and frustrated with her. my husband is yelling at me for being depressed and telling me to just get over it and to stop hating our daughter(i dont) and then when i dont fold laundry or do anything he acts like i should have the time. i dont know what to do anymore. i am the worst mother and wife.