this hurts.

I left my emotional abusive boyfriend yesterday. While he was hurting me it would feel like my heart was breaking, every time. I would feel like I lost the love of my life.

Now that we arent together it hurts ten times worse. I just wanna scream and cry, I have no motivation to get out of bed. All the things I was working towards mean nothing to me now, I jusy wanna lay in bed and cry. It hurts so bad, so so so so bad.

I don't have anyone to talk to either, there are people that say they are there but arent really. I have had guys I have never talked to randomly text me and tell me it'll be okay I just gotta do something else and they tell me sex always works. It pisses me off and I get really upset, why why would you do that? My only friend that I actually have is in boot camp so I cant talk to him.

My ex keeps texting me telling me he is worried about me and he wants to be there for me and help me. I want to talk to him because he was my best friend at one point. But it hurts, I love him so much I jusy couldn't take it anymore.

Now I am here heartbroken and alone and not okay.