Really been struggling with this lately 😩

Okay so when I was younger, I was lying down at my neighbor's house almost asleep when her brother came out & got on top of me, tried kissing me and touching me etc. He wasn't able to successfully rape me bc I got away. I know this was so many years ago & doesn't really fall under "sexual assault/ harassment" but it's something that's been bothering me for the past few months. Her brother was obsessed with me for a few years and still is to this day and now any time I start to get the feeling a guy is into me I start to grow cold and distant and get really freaked out like I have to run away. I think why I'm thinking about it so much is two reasons: A.) I'm in a class with 4 or 5 guys that compete for me (I'm genuinely not trying to come off as braggadocios here, the testosterone is way too real between them 😑) and B.) I work in a restaurant and older men are constantly hitting on me. I genuinely feel like I'm being such a baby, like this shouldn't even bother me.

Sorry for venting ladies, I guess I just had to get this off my chest.