Bitterness

To put it bluntly. I have turned into a bitter person over the past 3 months. my 2 best friends for 4 years, along with some others decided to part ways with me. I’m sad and angry. I’ve tried everything to get them back and it’s not really an option for them i guess. It seems to me like my life is really hard, and they leave when it’s hard for me. My life was too hard for them to stay and watch. You’d think that would be the time to be there for me. Anyways. I am always angry or sad and crying. just some form of a bad mood. I hate this. I am a happy person, i used to be... someone who talked about the color yellow and how it makes everyday brighter. I’m just not that anymore and it’s taking a toll on me. being alone and sad. i just don’t know how to get out of this hole i’m in. I miss my people. and i miss myself