HELP! WOULD YOU RATHER (PLEASE READ THE DESCRIPTIONS)

I was a devoted Christian. Christian values comforted and strengthen me as a human being.

After meeting my boyfriend, who is now my husband, who is Muslim, and after having endless debates on which is the right path, I decided to convert to Islam and might I say, I believe in Allah and the concept and truth that Muhammad is the Prophet of God.

I also believe that my Beloved Jesus, is also a prophet and not God.

It is so hard to be a mualaf (meaning: converted Islam) and being in my late 20s, I find it so hard to 'accept' and learn new ways of praying (the Islam way).

My husband isn't a "devoted" Muslim in terms of doing salah (Muslim prayer) but he does truly believe and understanf his religion.

I find it also very hard to memorize the Arabic language and prayer and on most nights I feel like crying because I miss my late talks to God.

I am so accustomed with Christianity and I just feel so lost. I don't know who to turn to.

I guess my question is.. would you rather pray to the wrong God... or not pray at all?