warning rape

I was raped 2 weeks ago and I swear my life has fallen apart ever since. I reported it on Monday and had a forensic interview on Wednesday. There the detective told me he did not believe my rapist would be charged and even if he would the jury wouldn't be on my side because we had a short but prior relationship.

He basically was saying if I said yes before I had no right to say no then. After I heard that I went from hardly bothered to a hot mess. I feel violated humiliated and as if I belong to everyone but myself.

As if clockwork all my friends have abandoned me so I had a breakdown and ran away to my mom I don't ever talk to. She out of anyone who in the past cared about me was not who I thought would hold me as I cried.

I just dont know where to go from here.