I have to tell someone about my first sexual experience in years.

I’ll give you some background. I’ve been celibate for 14 years. I have this friend who has been trying to get me to have sex with him for the past few years. He and I are both 28 and have been friends for 24 years. The last time we seen each other we were 17 and we were parting a lot. I kept turning him down because I wasn’t on birth control and he already had a son and I didn’t want to end up pregnant. Even though I’ve been in love with him for as long as I can remember. He has a tendency to disappear when he gets wrapped up in work. We always reconnect over FB Messenger. The last time we reconnected was in 2015. That’s when he brought up that he wanted to have sex with me once he found out how how long I’ve gone without having sex. He kept saying how he didn’t understand how I could go so long without having sex. Well we lost contact after I kept turning him down for sex. Then in February I got on the Nexplanon because I was planning on having sex with someone else. Well that guy ghosted me for 6 weeks. So out of the blue I decided to message my friend earlier this month. And he responded quickly. We talked innocently for a few hours and then he turned it sexual. I knew it was gonna happen sooner or later. So I just went with it and I was actually looking forward to it. We had plans and everything. But my period decided to crush my plans. Since being on Nexplanon my periods last 14 or more days. Well my dad and I drove an hour to pick him up from where he lives. He told me as we drove down to get him that he was bringing movies for us to watch. Which I knew was code for we were going to put them on so we could have sex. Well that night we were watching one of my Fave movie series and he asked me to give him a blow job. I was hesitant at first because it has been so long since the last time. I did it anyway and I had him moaning so much and covering his face with a pillow. Which I’ve never heard an guy moan that much I asked him if that’s what he expecting and he said no. The next night we went on a long walk and I asked him how was it. He said it was good and then I asked him what about it didn’t he expect and he wouldn’t tell me. I waited until we got back and I asked him over messenger and he said not to worry about it and that there was a little surprise. I kept pushing and he kept refusing to answer. So I just quit asking. Well that night he said he wanted to have sex. So we had True Blood on. And he warned me that he might be fast because it been a while for him. I reassured him that it was ok. He climbed in bed with me and we laid there. He is his boxer briefs and me in my panties. Then he started rubbing my thigh and rubbing his fingers over my panties as he sucked on my boobs. As he opened my lags And moved my panties to the side. He started rubbing my clit gently . Before I knew it his finger was in me and I was moaning. I was grinding and moving with his movements. As one point he had his thumb in me and his finger in my ass(which I enjoyed but didn’t expect to). By time he wanted to suck his dick in me he had already made me cum 6 times. Mind you he is on the small side ( which I don’t mind at all). Well he tried all kinds of positions to stick it in me. I could he was getting frustrated with himself and he just laid back in the bed. He told me he lost it so I got next to him and started stroking it and he started moaning. In no time he was hard again so I just got on top of him about to ride him. I put a leg up and he told me to stay down with my other leg. So I did and we were going at it for a while and we ended up cuming together. After he got up and put his boxers briefs back on and some shorts as went to the bathroom. He came back and we fell asleep. The next day I gave him another blow job because we was stressed out before work. Wednesday morning I mike him up my riding him because he said he’d like to be woken up that way. So I did it and we were both moaning and we came together again. He told me he wanted I go back to sleep but he had to get up for work. For the next two days after that he didn’t touch me or ask for sex or a blow job. When he got here from work he would sit across the room from me and we’d watch Netflix until he passed out in my chair. He would eventually climb into my bed and sleep for the rest of the night. I was feeling like maybe there was something wrong with me that he didn’t want anything else form me. Before he left today I sat him down and told him that I’ve had feelings for him and it had nothing to do with us have sex. He told me that he knew that already and that he’s know for years. I asked him why he never said anything he told me some things shouldn’t be talked about. I told him that I just felt like he had the right to know how I felt. He said he understood that. I will admit the sex and foreplay was mind blowing for me anyway. He says he will come back over again. I’m hoping we will do it again but maybe more then just a few times. Thursday I started spotting and then Friday I started my period only 4 days after my last period.