Heart breaking and life changing

I hear a lot about how Crohn’s can make you malnutritioned and lose weight but that is the complete opposite of what I’ve experienced. I’ve never been teeny tiny but I’ve never been obese either. I’ve always seemed to manage my weight and stay at a steady 150, give or take 5lbs. I had just had my son when I started showing symptoms. I didn’t know what was going on I was just in so much pain and having constant diarrhea. Yes! I totally just went there!! No one ever wants to talk about it but, guess what, it happens and for people like me who live with this disease or similar, it happens A LOT. After 6 months of being in and out of the ER and doctors offices trying to figure out what was happening to me I finally got sent to a GI specialist, mind you I was having symptoms for a few months before I even went to the doctor because I mean who wants to go in and say. “Hey doc, by the way, I’ve been shitting my brains out… Is that normal?”. After many tests, one of which included me swallowing a camera 😳, I was diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease. I got put on a round of prednisone but it wasn’t helping with my flare, so they upped my dosage and I was on it for 6 months. I went from 145lbs to 240lbs. I’m at the largest I’ve ever been. I dread looking in the mirror because I don’t even recognize the person staring back at me anymore. I don’t even know how to dress myself anymore, what’s going to look flattering? What’s going to make me look bigger than what I am? And by this point you’re probably thinking “well, diet and exercise”. When you have Crohn’s disease it’s just not that simple. I made a commitment to myself about three months ago when my second biggest Crohn’s attack hit, and I got put back on prednisone, that I was going to start exercising more and eating healthier but I have been in the gym 3 to 5 days a week since then and it’s not helping. While other people are eating salads, and while I’d be more than happy to make myself a salad every day, my digestive system can’t tolerate lettuce. I’m the type of person that goes to a restaurant, find what I like and stick with it. If we order Chinese I always get chicken and broccoli, yum😋. Do you realize the looks I get when I go to a Chinese restaurant and order chicken and broccoli without broccoli? Because the last time I had 1 piece of broccoli I was hospitalized for 3 days. And it’s not like, “oh you have Crohn’s? Ok, here’s a list of things you can and can’t eat”. Everybody’s disease is different! So while other people are on the Keto or Adkins diet, I’m over here like “well, it has this many carbs but how is it going to affect my Crohn’s?” This isn’t even something I’m going to get over. There is no known cure for Crohn’s Disease. I’m going to have to live with this for the rest of my life. I don’t really know who I am anymore and I don’t even know where to begin to get back to being me. I’ve been thinking a lot about bariatric surgery to help and I’m looking for some advice so please help me out and vote. If you’ve stuck with me for this long, thank you. Don’t ever take your health for granted because one day you might not have it. #CureForIBD