My ex

So recently me and my ex broke up like 3years ago, and we started talking you see i apologized for so much shit that has happened between us plus i am always a forgiven that’s a habit i need to break. But recently we started talking and i only wanted to be mutual because you see he has a gf and i am single Pringle (but i can tell he doesn’t love this girl she’s just a rebound) why you asked...because he just literally opened up to me talked to me about things he said he wouldn’t talk to about his gf he would talk to me about so much and i would do so with him you see i was single and i honestly didn’t care i know very selfish of me but i if he had any heart for his gf why talk to me open up to me and talk to me sexually. Like things i never knew he wanted to do i was into! I was being greedy asf. I loved the attention i poured my heart and emotions out to him which i never shouldn’t have done he asked me questions and i answered them honestly and truthfully because i hate lying but all good things had to come to an end he felt like he was sabotaging his relationship (which i agreed to as well) and we ended our little sneaky game i was so sad because i got our of a relationship a horrible one and hear i was leaning on to something i thought was hope, but 4 or 5 days later he hits back up on instagram with a “hey hey” but I’m like tf does he want he literally doesn’t want to be with me and made me feel like a total ass hat so he tells me he broke up with his gf I’m like finally!!! We begin talking as usual until around 11 pm he text me saying he got back with his gf and I’m just like motherfucker.....now i look stupid again and i hit him back up say can we text on a regular (just to tease him because i know it’s going to be a no) which it was he tells me we can’t talk much because his gf hates when he talks to his ex’s so I’m like bitch she’s going to bitch if you talk to anyone because she so fucking insecure, open your eyes you’re not in love you’re just trying to fix a broken mirror that’s not gonna be fixed but i just left it alone like a good person.

Now idk what to my feelings are all over the place i really am deeply in love with this guy ever since we broke and i moved on to another relationship i kept thinking about him, which is sad but my feeling are strong for him. What do you guys think (i do love criticism lol)