i starting to hate my life

i dont know where to begin ..im very depressed and i know it and i dont what to do 😒first i have two kids that dont listen and just disrespect me by not listening to sh** i say and their my boyfriend of 6 yrs that does nothing but play his ps4 all day ...i mean he doesn't clean unless i ask him to he doesn't nothing unless i ask and even then its like pulling teeth he doesn't help with the boys anymore. and i like why are we evening together ...their my kids by another man but his been here since my youngest was born and the only daddy they know smfh ..but now his backing off and doesn't little to nothing with them ...just plays him games i know alot has to do with the fact that my youngest is having Behavior problem but im trying to help him while he's back off almost completely i tried and i did help like right now ive been up sincere 7am with them and i tried to them to sleep for a nap i finally did at like 1pm mind u his was asleep this whole time ...i finally get him to sleep and his brother woke him up like 10 mins later smfh now their in the room ripping it apart and guess what i tried and crying because i just need a break and guess what he is doing ....u guess it playing the damn game 😈😈😈 im at a point where ready for him to leave i can do this with out another headache💁💁💁