Excited about him getting leave!

Sooo.... I’ll try to make this long story as short as possible.

-Found out we were expecting almost a week before Easter.

-Husband was set to deploy for a YEAR and received a Mission Essential letter a few days after which pulled him almost a full month sooner.

-Started having a miscarriage at 5 weeks , 3 days before he had to leave. 😭

-I’m still dealing with the pregnancy loss, my second(first was during my first marriage). I miss how sweet and happy my husband was when I told him. 😢

- I didn’t realize it bothered him that much until he got over there and was telling his Admiral what had gone down days before he got there.

-I STILL think about it at least every other day. Maybe God knew it wasn’t the right time?

GOOD NEWS:

-Just found out he can take a week of leave because he has to come back to the states for a special training. Whoohoo!!!!!

-Is it bad that I’m like let’s try again even though he’d still be gone for the birth?

I just don’t know. Ughhh 🤦🏻‍♀️