struggling when pregnant

a bit of a rant and concern. when writing this post I'm 10 weeks 5 days pregnant with my rainbow and I feel so down and lifeless and I feel like I can't cope anymore. since finding out about this pregnancy I have been feeling so upset and don't know what to do and I feel

there are times that my husband is asleep and I just wake up at 2am and not sleep until he is waking up for work at 7am. my mind is not coping very well and I feel like my mind is about to explode and I just feel I can't do anything right. every night I have this same dream that what happened before with my angel will happen this time. every night I cry myself to sleep making sure my husband is not hearing it.