I am lost and done

I begged my ex to have kids and he refused yes there were other issues but I left because I couldn’t take the hurt in my heart. We both moved on and he’s moved on with a woman that has children and I just wonder why I wasn’t good enough for that.

My husband is open to having children with me now, but now I am trying to finish my college degree. All I have ever wanted is a baby to love and I can’t have it.