1st Pregnancy Ending in Miscarriage 💔

Sorry, venting session is coming.... 😞 I never thought I would be one who had a miscarriage, but that’s always what everyone thinks to themselves. “It won’t happen to me.” But sadly, I found it happen to me. I’m the first one in my group of friends to experience one and it’s so hard. My best friend just got pregnant too and we were so excited to be pregnancy buddies. I’m so broken-hearted thinking about how she will go on without me and I’ll be here feeling so empty. 💔😞 I know my life is changed forever because of our little bean who’s life was very short. It’s honestly traumatizing waking up to blood everywhere. I honestly have always thought to myself, I’ll be ok if I have a miscarriage, it doesn’t seem like a big deal. But I feel so empty inside. Getting that positive and telling our parents and seeing them so happy and imagining how great life will be 7 months from now. I know it will hurt for a very long time and I know nothing will change that, but I know I won’t let it get me down and we will try again and get our rainbow baby some day. I just have to keep my head up and look toward the rainbow coming after the storm. ⛈🌈

My heart goes out to all of you. It’s not easy. It’s not something you just let go and move on. It hurts and it hurts for a long time. I’m forever changed from one little baby who was just inside me a few days ago. 💔👼🏼