Help 😬

So I’ve tried masturbating with a dildo and with fingering. I’ve only tried it a hand full of times. I have a really hard time getting myself to climax but when my boyfriend helps out I feel like I get super close and then I start crying 😂 I feel like it’s just all of the build up from it that my hormones just get out of control. My boyfriend and I just laugh afterwards but I just really want to know what it’s like to climax! Any suggestions on how to get through it to the end??