This is kinda messed up but

I feel like if I have another miscarriage I will leave my partner. I know it’s not his fault that I had one before and I never blamed him, but he put me through a lot of unnecessary stress then and again now. I can’t help but feel like he doesn’t give a shit about me if he doesn’t consider how the fighting affects me, and I’m already so worried I will miscarry again. I’m mentally a mess. And he knows this. I’m counting down the days for a follow-up ultrasound to see if baby is progressing. In some ways I don’t even want him there for the ultrasound. I don’t know that I could stay with him after another miscarriage. I just really don’t think I could.