advice is needed.

I don’t know where even to start. I think I’m slipping from reality. I’m losing myself and any happiness that surrounds me.

I feel as if I’m not good enough for the man I love.

He’s not a Virgin. He’s had sex. Six times in fact. But tells me he doesn’t want to with me. He’s too scared he’ll get me pregnant and isn’t ready for a kid. But that doesn’t make any sense to me. What about those six other times? Why am I not good enough but they were? Now every time I go to sleep, I wake up in a panic attack because I have dreams of it. Of him doing other girls. But me, it’s just not okay with him. He doesn’t understand how hard it is for me to cope with this. It’s so hard. He told me I was a miserable person, but he doesn’t know that this is eating away at me and slowing ruining my self confidence and my total mindset. It hurts. Badly. And I don’t know what to do with myself. He wants to cut out intimacy completely. Which means he’ll probably use porn and jack off. So either way, IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM. I’m in so much pain mentally. Someone please help.