I was sexually assaulted in 2015.

Iv recently watched the new season of 13 reasons why. A show where it talks a lot about assault. Since 2016 the thought of my assault has been coming and going but since the anniversary of the assault this year I have been thinking about it a lot but coping by pushing it out my mind. Now since watching the show it’s been giving me triggers. I had a complete break down last night about it to my boyfriend but as he was poorly he kind of dismissed it and fell asleep told me to ‘sleep it off’ I then tried to mention it to my mum this morning by saying ‘I can’t watch anymore of the show as it’s getting too much for me’ and all she told me was to ‘just watch the rest, you can’t miss the ending now’.... it just feels like I can’t speak to anyone about it and it’s eating me up inside. When I close my eyes it’s like I’m rewatching the whole thing happen to myself, when my boyfriend try’s to hug me or touch me in any type of way my body won’t let me enjoy it when I know i want to. I don’t know why I’m writing this I guess I’m just hoping there’s someone on here who understands 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️