My husband and I have been together for almost 6 years now... and for a good portion of that time we have been TTC. I was diagnosed “officially” with PCOS a few years ago, but I knew I had it all along. I used to have a pretty regular period when I was in middle school and a portion of high school. It was until I graduated that I started to become irregular. I never thought much of it, because having a period every month was a bit annoying, but now I see it so much differently.

I’ve always wanted to be a mom. I have my kids names picked out and everything! As crazy as that sounds! The idea of not being able to conceive has weighed me down for years now. I feel like less of a women for possibly not being able to have a child. And I know I shouldn’t feel that way. Some days I am positive, and I tell myself it will happen for us. And I’ll have my family. But other days I feel so horrible about myself that I just cry.

I had a dream a few nights ago that I had a child. And he spoke to me and I hugged and kissed him. He called me “mommy”, I woke up crying and I balled my eyes out to my husband.

My GYN gave me the list of things to do; lose weight, take this, do that. But I can’t stop thinking “why me”?! I’ve read so many posts on here about TTC with PCOS and I know I’m not alone. I wish none of us had to go through this. I hope and I pray that We Will all get our miracle... I hope so much that all of this sadness and frustration will be broken with the good news of new life.

I don’t talk to anyone really about my struggles or the issues I’ve had. Not even my family really knows.. This is the first place I’ve found people who are in the same situation I am. I just wanted to get all that out, since it’s passed midnight and I’ve read countless stories tonight and my mind is on the topic!

Positivity & Baby dust to everyone ✨💞