Confession?

I never liked my body and was always so insecure about it, what I’m about to say is something huge, I never/haven’t told my family or my Bestfriend it’s something I been doing/ keeping to myself... to lose weight I been limiting the amount of food I ate and also making myself throw up. I know it’s not healthy and that’s why I’m confessing here I guess I want help but to afraid to ask. I’m scared if I tell my family they would judge me instead of helping me making me feel worst about myself, I try to stop making myself throw up or eat more but then that makes me feel so ashamed and ill end up crying for hours in my room. It’s not that serious yet I just started doing this about a month now and I don’t want to stop even tho I know I should, I’m just so fat I want to be skinny.

You see how I look, just looking at the picture of my body right now have me in tears 😭 this is just so embarrassing, I hate my body