Unwanted

Since having a baby nearly 2 years ago, we only have sex about 6 times a year. When we do it’s distant, he doesn’t touch me, kiss me or give me any clue he actually enjoys it. I feel like I’m hideous and disgusting, and get rejected on the the rare times I have enough confidence to try to initiate it. When I’ve tried to make an effort by looking nice or being affectionate it goes unnoticed. Is this something others have gone through? Looking for advice.