I’m lonely and depressed

Honestly I have having long breaks from school. I’m super lonely right now. My best friends hasn’t asked me to hang out in weeks. I don’t really have a lot of friends. I’m single, and being home alone all the time is making me miss having someone to talk to. It’s making me miss my ex and I hate that feeling.

The only people I hang out with are my siblings, and I love hanging out with them, but they have their own lives and I don’t want to bother them.

When I’m home alone, I just can’t stop thinking about dying or wanting to die. Thing is is that I’m always alone. I just feel so pathetic. Like a waste of a life.