I seriously need some community here

And I seriously need prayers. We are 10th month ttc. I'm 6dpo and going literally insane. I've tried praying. I've tried distraction. Ive tried relaxing. It feels like nothing is working. I got an hsg last week and tubes are open. Dh got semen analysis and we are awaiting results. They said we should hear by today so I'm just praying that they call us and let us know. And that everything is clear. I pray that even though we only bd day of positive opk and 2 days after and 2 days before positive opk that it was enough. My dh works grave yard shift and I was out of town on the day I had cramping and egg white. So I've been frustrated about that. I am scared I'm going to have to try for years like others. I don't want it. I'm just feeling like it's all unfair. I trust that God is good but I'm like a child who isn't getting their way with getting upset. Anyone else there? I feel so alone in this!