Should I have hope or not? ❗️❣️ Please read and give advice , I know it’s really long , but I’be been struggling about this more than 3 years

So there is this guy I like a lot , and it’s more than a like actually, I really like him a lot

To take thing from the start this guy was leaving next to my house so since we were little kids we were always together , all day he was at my house or outside , with us they were also my brother and his sister

When I was at 5-6 grade(2012/2013) he moved so we drifted apart for like 2 years

When he was my neighbor I didn’t have feelings for him , I saw him as a friend

Suddenly after 2 years (2015) he came to my house without saying anything and we started talking again , but when I saw him that day I emediatly fell for him , cause I already like his character he was a really nice kid , but now he had glowed up , when he was my neighbor he was little chubby , now he was so fit , muscular, he had abs , I liked everything about him character and appearance

Since that day he kept coming at my house again without giving me a notice before

It was cute but also annoying cause I didn’t want him seeing me unprepared with my hair messy and my pijamas

We texted a little but not much cause through texts he was snob , completely different from face to face

I think he is not much of a social media person , he doesn’t even have Instagram , only Facebook and he hasn’t uploaded not even one picture of him

Anyway , when we were together we talked , we played on the PlayStation and if he was losing we fought ,and we were hitting each other , but not like hearting each other , we played , like I was sitting on him so he couldn’t see he was sitting on me so u couldn’t see either , he and I was hitting each other , he took me in his arms and throw me at the couch, and stuff like that

Also I don’t know if it’s a quincidence but on his profile he had as a nickname my seventeen and the first text from him was at 17

Also my name starts from an R in the alphabet if u take 1 = A , 2 = B , ... 17= R

One of the days that he came announced to my house he came with his cousin ( girl ) I didn’t know she was his cousin , he told me she is my girlfriend, and after like a half hour he told me that she isn’t and that she is his cousin

One day his sister was asking my if I liked her brother , I didn’t say anything , but she kept asking so I said yes

But his sister and some other friends influenced me that he probably doesn’t see me like that and that I don’t want to ruin our friendship for something that will probably end

So after some days I told her that when I said that I liked her brother I was joking and I see him as a good friend

(Haven’t regretted anything that much )

Than she said that she has told him that I liked him

And than he texted me what I am sending to his sister

And he sound pretty mad

He said , I don’t care I don’t care , I don’t care , that I have other problems with my girlfriend and that it would be okay if I liked him

And the next day he uploaded on Facebook why does everyone see me us a friend

( that’s why I regretted so much telling him that I saw him as a friend , cause I didn’t at all )

After that we lost touch again for like 2 years, it was 2016 than ,

And now 2018 again he texted suddenly where am I , and that we lost touch , that he should come on day to my house , and we scheduled again one day for him to come

Again after 2 years I saw him , and again he had glowed up even more , it was winter , so it was cold , he came to

My house we hugged , he said ohh it’s pretty hot in here and took his jacket off , his other jacket and he lifted his shirts thingies ( I don’t remember how it’s called ) but it was a shirt and it was like he was wearing a t-shirt that way , so he showed his muscles 💪 , we talked again at first

Than we said to play PlayStation, first he played a much with my brother and said that the winner will play with me , he was losing from my brother so than he said , that the loser will play with me , after he lost we played , when he was playing with my brother he was sitting next to me and my brother on the other side right in front of the tv , he didn’t want to go next to my brother in front of the tv , I don’t know why

After that when I went to play with him , and my brother went to the other couch and I went in the bed in front of the tv , I told him to come sit here so he can be in front of the tv , and emediatly he came and sat next to me , without any space from me , my shoulder and feet was touching his

We began to play , he put one goal and he took me and hug me

Again he put another goal and he hugged me , after that I put some goals , and than again he put one goal and he rubbed my back and said it’s ok

After the game we went outside ( also my brother ) we sat at some stairs outside , I was in the middle in the left he was sitting and on the right my brother was sitting , he said that look the sky it’s very beautiful now that it is night , he said it’s really cold and he came closer , again he said it’s really cold and came closer , than he said I am tired I will lay on you , and he laid on me

Obviously my feeling for him hadn’t left I really liked him since that day he came at my house 2015 ,if my brother wasn’t there that night ( 2018 ) we would probably kiss , or I would do a move , since everything that he did , the way he was acting I had son much hope .

But I didn’t get the chance so i texted him ? And told him from a text , I explained that with his sister and I told him that I like him

But he was digging to answer , he responded but he didn’t give me an answer he was saying xaxa big text , I said to him that he didn’t answer , and he was saying he doesn’t log in even tho he read them , anyway I don’t remember exactly but he was digging to answer

So I said him instead of being snob and not answering I would much rather him saying that he doesn’t like me or he sees me as a friend , something

He said that he is not snob and that he doesn’t log in on messenger that much

And again he didn’t answered my question

After that I send home that I have understood that the answer is negative but I don’t understand why u don’t say it

And he said : I tell u again I don’t login that much , I will come by and we will talk things in person

And I asked when

And he said that he hill text me

So I didn’t send again , he send after 20 days ,

Xaxaxax I didn’t send

And I said Emm yeahh

He said sorry , but ( again I regretted hearing my friends and I didn’t answered)

Than after 2 months he send me where is your brother , I didn’t read the text or answered , and he send again , I didn’t answer

He made Instagram and send me again where you s your brother

I said , wtf I told you something and you didn’t gave me an answer and now you are asking where is my brother

He said I forgot

I wasn’t answering that much now

Anyways after some one word answers is asked him so only for that u wanted me where is my brother , why u didn’t send to him and also , there is one question u haven’t answered yet

He said that he couldn’t find his Facebook

I told him u didn’t answer all my questions

He said what was the other question

I said there is one older that u still haven’t answered

He said to say the question again

( my friend told me to say to him to go through the messages it’s not so hard )

I send that

And after I told him that i don’t understand Him , I know he has exams now ( exams for getting into college) but it’s not that hard to give me an answer

He said that the way I speak he doesn’t want to answer me

And I said , how I speak , u said that u will text me and u didn’t

He said that he forgot and that when he texted after 1 week I didn’t answer

I said that u texted after 20 days and how much u forgot , anyways I ask u again now can u give me an answer

I don’t remember exactly what he said , but he didn’t answer my question

After that I texted him a pic of one quote (😂) saying that if u think of me say it , if u want me say it , even if u don’t want me say it , but say something

He said don’t act as a kid

I said I act like a kid because I try it a little more , ok , if u don’t want than say it , but u haven’t said anything so what do u want me to do

He said that he will come and that he wants to talk in person

I said ok

He said when u can ?

I told him the days I can’t

And he said that he will text me , and again still no text

I explained to u the situation with many details so u can understand everything

I don’t know what should I do , I really really like him for more than 3 years I still liked him and even tho a lot of people asked me out I didn’t said yes cause I wanted him

And no one that I liked could make me not thinking

Also I know where he is staying should I go like he did unannounced or nah that would be weird ?

Should I try forgetting him ?

After everything I told u , do u think he liked me ? Should I try it again ? Should I text anything

Please I would be really happy to hear your advice I really like this guy a lot