Embarrassed

I'm so embarrassed to admit I've been sexually molested by my brother and I never told until couple years ago. Here recently I've become sorta obsessed with rape and its been eating at me. I just can't get away from the subject. I feel like I'm drowning with it. It don't help I have no one to talk too. Like every story I read is about it. I just wanna get away from it. Any advice will help. Just no negativity please.