I don’t know where I’m going with this post but

I want to go back to feeling okay. People grow up and I grew up but sometimes I miss being little. I don’t want to live the life me and my friends are living. Like I don’t wanna go to party’s all the time and be a hoe anymore. I just feel like this life isn’t for me. Doing what I do isn’t for me. Idk how to explain it but anyone else?