I just had a miscarriage. *SLIGHTLY GRAPHIC*

I’m twenty, and I honestly don’t know what to do, or where to begin. I didn’t notice that I hadn’t had my period, it completely slipped my mind, and although my body felt a little off, I ignored it as maybe being a bit ill. A few days ago I stopped feeling so uneasy, but I began to bleed and clot. I usually have a heavy-ish flow so I didn’t think much of it, until I started cramping (I rarely ever get cramps, let alone painful ones). It wasn’t the mildly uncomfortable type, it genuinely hurt. I decided to take a nap the next day in hopes to feel better, but when I woke up my legs were just covered in what seemed like pools of blood and clots, and the cramping persisted.

I went to google, still thinking it was just an abnormal period, I honestly didn’t know what else it could be. Although miscarriage popped up, I dismissed it immediately. I promise I always use at least two forms of protection so I found it impossible. I didn’t think I was finding anything, so I called an emergency OBGYN appointment. After talking and going over things, I was told I had a miscarriage at around 6-7 weeks. Although she told me emotions and body functions that will follow after, I honestly feel numb. I feel scared, grossed out, angry, relieved, sad, etc. I keep crying, and yet I feel detached from the situation. I also can’t shake this guilty feeling, and I keep thinking it was something I maybe did to cause it.

I haven’t told anyone, and I don’t know what to do now, or how to approach how I feel.