My husband and I are going on month four of TTC ( I know it’s not a long time in the grand scheme of things) the first month that we were ttc I found out that my sister was 10 weeks pregnant. I am absolutely over the moon to be an aunt and so in love with this baby already! It just took me really off guard to find out that she was expecting when she has never had a “want” for a kido. Her and her husband had only been ttc for about 3 months as well.

My family all seem to be rather fertile. My cousin who just had her second baby has always got pregnant within the first month of trying, another cousin got pregnant after her first month of trying. Unfortunately it was a chemical pregnancy but then got pregnant again the following month and is well on her way to being 12 weeks now. I just don’t understand why I always seem to have to work harder for things that I want than the rest of my family.

Many of my husbands and my friends are expecting as well I can’t scroll through Facebook without seeing an announcement or a gender reveal.

I realize I am being a very jealous person at this point but my heart just aches. I am frightened that I will never be able to make my husband a father and that kills me to no end.