FTM- Cheating husband- single mom

So I’m really needing some positive vibes right now! I am 14 weeks pregnant, and I’ve been dealing with A LOT! This is my first child, and she deserves the best. And from the looks right now... her father is anything but the best and will not be in her life( no not because he cheated but because he has done something much worse).

I am terrified of raising my angel alone, even tho my family and friends are very supportive and helpful.... I still feel alone without my babies father by my side! Although I feel the urge to be with him, it’s the best and safest not to be! My emotions are absolutely at the worst! And I just need some friendly advice, or just positive outlooks from other single mothers!