I’m trying to decide what will be best for me, at first I wanted my mum there as well as my partner, but my mum and I haven’t been getting along lately.

She doesn’t make an effort to see me, or call me. Literally every time we talk it ends up turning into an argument and I’m left crying.

Long story short, my parents are going through a divorce sorta, they have been separated for years though 😩 so my dad wanted to make it work recently but my mum refused to even talk to him about anything, even though he was giving her money each week. I feel like my mum has been using my dad for years. It’s all very messy and complicated. I feel like it’s effected my relationship with my mum, I just don’t see her in the same way.

Also I feel like she’s not respecting what I want for the baby.. I recently have had a flu shot and the hooping cough shot, so the baby and I will be safe. My partner will be getting them soon too. I asked if she would have them done for the baby’s sake, since it will be winter when the baby’s born (I live in Australia) and she will be helping with the baby. She made all these excuses and said oh I never get sick, you know I eat so healthy so I don’t need to do that bla bla.. then said I don’t trust the vaccines. I’m so over it.

Im about to tell her she won’t be there when the baby’s born and she will not be looking after our baby. I feel terrible because it’s her first grandchild but she isn’t respecting what I want.

Also she never ever has her phone on loud it’s always on silent, which makes it impossible for her to be contacted, btw she doesn’t work. When I talk to her about having her phone on loud, she starts telling me how when she had my brother she didn’t rush to the hospital and it takes time to have a baby so I shouldn’t worry. But everyone is different, I might have the baby quick, you never know.

Ahh I want to pull my hair out, she literally doesn’t listen or care!! So I’m now thinking why should I care what she wants!

I just hate how everything is right now, it’s not how I imagined having my first baby.