girl crush...

for the longest time, i’ve had a crush on a girl in my grade. honestly i couldn’t even describe her. she’s funny, nice, cute, beautiful, talented, athletic, and god is she lovely. words can seriously not describe how helpless i am around her. for example, yesterday, at my grade’s graduation, she was singing with the choir and i couldn’t stop looking at her (is that weird?). that same day when she complimented me on how i looked, i couldn’t stop smiling and having my shoulders come up. i must have looked like an idiot.. i’ve basically had a crush on her since 7th grade and now i’m a freshman in high school, so im and have been dying for around three years.

there are a few problems though... i dont know how she identifies. i know she supports lgbtq+ people, but i do t know if she, herself, is one. i mean, she got the ‘bisexual haircut’ numerous times, but that doesn’t mean anything if she doesn’t know what it means. and on top of that, she has a boyfriend. he a nice guy and treats her fairly well, from what i know, and he’s super attractive... they’re such a cute couple and she seems so happy and i don’t want to ruin anything... i want to do something so bad but i know i can’t. i keep trying to convince myself that i’ll be okay as long as she’s happy, but i don’t know if i can last...

i’m open to any suggestions, or stories? say what ever, please. i just need to vent.

sincerely,

a torn queer