I have been with my boyfriend for officially 6 months and 1 day today. We love each other very much and we are a team and are there for each other. We plan our future together; we talk about our day, the good and the bad; we are there for each other through everything and anything no matter how embarrassing it may be. And right now we are still helping each other find new jobs to apply to.

Recently, I have been trying to get a job again. I was on and off with trying because it was stressful and I would start losing hope. Just a few days ago I went in for an interview and it went well and I possibly will get the job. Although I may get a job like I have been constantly saying to boyfriend, I still feel like I am failing as a girlfriend somewhat. I have no money right now so I cannot buy him things that he wants or needs, give him a little gas money when he takes time to come to my house to comfort me, drive me to places I have to go, help save up for the place we want and need, etc. I don't have a license and even if I did, I have no money for a car.

Since I have no money or car, I feel like I cant be there for him as much as I want to be, as much as his is there for me. I feel like it is unfair but not completely my fault (mom stops me progressing to be independent). Eventhough now I am trying my hardest I feel like a disappointment when I can't go to his house when he wants to see me or when we want to see each other and he doesn't have enough gas to drive because if it was the other way around and he had gas, he would come to me as soon as he could, even if it had to be the next day.

He says that he understands that I want to have a car and that I want to be able to see him, go here and there, and all of that. He also told me that we could save up together to get me a cheap car to start with so I can drive myself to work and not rely on my mom.

Is it bad for me to feel this way?