School, Secrets, and Sexuality

I am questioning myself. I find myself to be looking at men and women as “fair game” for lack of better terms. 😉 I do like men, but am not sure if I would ever sleep with a woman. I have never had sex, but I really want to with someone I feel a deep connection with. I’m looking for the right person, going to college, applying for a jobs, trying to do everything right. I know there is no possible thing to make everything “right”. 😣 I want to be happy, but there is so much fucking pressure put on me by my parents, who want me to go in the medical field, which I don’t oppose, but I just feel a bunch of pressure trying to be this “perfect” person that I know I can’t be. Help!