I DID IT🎓

Sorry for the long post💁🏻‍♀️ So, my freshman year of high school my dad passed away unexpectedly. he was only 49 at the time and to this day, I do not know what the cause of death was. Adjusting to a new school with new people was hard enough already. After he passed away I missed a few weeks of school. My daddy was my hero and my best friend. I became extremely depressed and suicidal, on top of severe anxiety. My doctor insisted putting me on anti-depressants even though at the time I did not think it was necessary. I ended up having a bad experience with the first kind they tried. I remember telling my mom that I honestly felt like I didn’t want to live anymore. She ended up having me admitted into a mental institution to try to cope with my depression. I tried medication after medication and I just never felt like myself. Things were okay up until the point where I started hurting myself to make me feel better, which landed me right back into the hospital. So basically I missed A LOT of school. It really brought my grades down, and rumors were going around school about me so I didn’t have friends. I ate lunch by myself or in the office. I ended up leaving that school to finish high school online because I could not bring myself to go to a place that made me feel worse than I already did. It was really hard to motivate myself to keep doing it. My family was a huge part of my success because they kept me on my feet. I found out I was pregnant in January... Before I told anyone, I beat myself up and felt like I was a disappointment, especially to my dad. I later realized that everything happens for a reason. Being pregnant gave me the motivation to graduate and I have the most loving and supporting mother a girl could ask for. She is constantly reminding me that my dad is proud of me and is always watching over me. With her support, and my amazing boyfriend, I finally graduated. I know this may not seem like a big accomplishment to others, but given everything I have been through in life (a lot more was left out), I could not be more proud of myself. So here I am, 18 years old, happy, surviving, 26 weeks and 1 day pregnant, graduating❣️