Lost in life

My husband has did horrible shit to my family, friends and I. He knows I'm leaving him. But still comes back to the house to sleep or act like he did nothing. I lost my family and some friends. Well I really only lost one family member but that was the most important one. The the only family members never cared for me anyways. only family I have now is my kids and unborn. I'm so lost right now. All/ been doing is crying. Hate myself for even put myself in this situation. I just need to vent that all. Figure out life.