This shit just keeps getting worseš
So I was looking through bank statements from the past couple of months since Iāve been too out of it to really pay much attention, and I noticed that my bd has been using my card and at one point last month, spent over $200 on his fuckin PS4. All on his stupid fortnite game. And I found that thereās been a whoooollleeeee bunch of other charges going back to March. I almost died having his kid, and a week and a half later, run up a $200 bill knowing I canāt work atm.

So I unblocked him and messaged him on Facebook because I just got my number changed just so he wouldnāt be able to get a hold of me, since heās super manipulative and been trying to step up His mind games the past couple of weeks. Soon as I messaged him about it, he blocked me on both my main account and old account.

So I messaged his bestie to see if heād relay the message to him that he better run me my moneyšš¼ and his friend snitched him out š¤·š¼āāļø

Imma be getting me a new card, and on Monday going in to file a report and get my money back. This dude is really straight trash. And I really hate myself right now for falling for his mind games for so long.

A few days ago, heād also admitted to me that the whole time he was in my face trying to get me back and ādo well for his familyā, he was also in his other exes face tryina get her back too. Seeing whoād take him back first because apparently he canāt be single for longer than a couple weeks.
When I blocked his txts because I was getting too stressed out, he messaged me somewhere else sayin he was gonna just jump off somethin and he was sorry. He didnāt do it. I knew he was just trying to manipulate me because heās done it before. Later, he posted on his snapchat story a picture of āhis armā all cut up saying āI donāt remember so donāt askā. Turns out it was makeup or something because I called his granny about it. She said she looked all over him and there was not one scrape on himššš
And I KNOW heās trying to tell people Iām the cause of it and trying to say Iām keeping his son from him, because since then, fewer people will talk to me or even acknowledge me.

But tbh, after all this, I will keep my son away from him. Because he is so toxic. And heās so childish. He hasnāt even met him yet, because he canāt keep a job to come see him. Had one for 2 weeks then got fired because he called off work to go fight somebody. Also, hes abusive in so many ways. I will not have my son ANYWHERE NEAR any of that, regardless of who they are to him. My son will have a happy life. Iāll find me a good man in the far future that will be able to be a good healthy father figure to my son. But bio dad or not, if you are toxic and would hurt my son, youāre staying far tf away from both of us. If dude could push me around and tell me that he wanted to make me cut myself, while I was pregnant with our son, I have no doubt he could bury my son now that heās in this world.
P.s.
Whenever his dad sees him, he doesnāt ever say anything positive. He says stuff like āwhatās wrong with my sonā āwhy he eyes do that. Donāt let them do thatā (when my sons eyes would go crosseyed every once in a while when he was still only a week or two old) āwhy my son look so funnyā āheās probably not even mineā. Or when he talks to him, he says some shit about when he gets older, he better watch his tongue or heāll be ābeatin that assā. My son is 7 weeks old so Iām glad he wonāt remember. That shit is not gone fly by me. so yes, this is not just out of spite for how heās treated me. Itās how heās talks to my son, and his character.

Rant through šš Iāll post an update when I go to the bank, and let yāall know if his stupid ass ever gets back to me about this. Iām donešš¼
Quick couple of pics of Maākai though just to brighten the moodš¤·š¼āāļø (he loves being held football style and can already hold his head up like its nothinšš been able to do that since he was less than a week oldš)



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